[John slaps his hand onto the legal pad and, in a strange mirror of that night weeks ago, gracelessly slings it down the length of the island and off the side, where it falls straight off.] Forget the damn report.
[It's a sharp bit of physicality, and it's unusual. John didn't mean to do it, a sudden, violent gesture. John uses violence, it never uses him. Control over his body is a well-honed aspect of his persona. But it's gone in that moment, and right after, he feels so fucking tired. He leans his face into his hands.] Give me a moment. [Otherwise he's going to strangle the wizard.]
[Another slow, deep breath.] I realize that I've carefully cultivated an image of omniscience and projected it onto the city. It's a very calculated process with a lot of work behind it, and it's always proven to be ultimately worthwhile. People are far less likely to keep secrets when they are sure you already know them.
But even with the soulgaze between us and the years of trading debts with each other, you have always been incomprehensible. Fascinating, awe-inspiring, but sometimes so inscrutable that I--
[John drops his hands, sighing, and eats another berry.] You have enough ammunition from that night to kill me ten times over and you haven't.
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Date: 2012-11-11 07:13 am (UTC)[It's a sharp bit of physicality, and it's unusual. John didn't mean to do it, a sudden, violent gesture. John uses violence, it never uses him. Control over his body is a well-honed aspect of his persona. But it's gone in that moment, and right after, he feels so fucking tired. He leans his face into his hands.] Give me a moment. [Otherwise he's going to strangle the wizard.]
[Another slow, deep breath.] I realize that I've carefully cultivated an image of omniscience and projected it onto the city. It's a very calculated process with a lot of work behind it, and it's always proven to be ultimately worthwhile. People are far less likely to keep secrets when they are sure you already know them.
But even with the soulgaze between us and the years of trading debts with each other, you have always been incomprehensible. Fascinating, awe-inspiring, but sometimes so inscrutable that I--
[John drops his hands, sighing, and eats another berry.] You have enough ammunition from that night to kill me ten times over and you haven't.